“A dream doesn’t become reality through magic;
it takes sweat, determination, and hard work.”

~ Colin Powell ~

My childhood dream

“I’m going to be a doctor one day.”

I remember deciding to become a doctor at 6 years old. It didn’t quite work out that way, yet I believe I now have access to something even better, with more options. Here’s the story.

My grandparents lived in a different city, about 5 hours’ drive from where we lived. We visited them once a year and I loved those visits where we got spoilt and could stay up late. My grandmother had this amazing book in one of her cupboards and I no longer remember how or when I discovered it. Perhaps my grandma showed it to me after I’d started reading at the tender age of 4, and she wanted to encourage my curiosity.

The book that started it all

Ever since the first intro to that book I could hardly wait to go back to grandma to head for that magnificent book. (Sorry, Granny!)

It was a book about the human body with see-through pages and layers of the anatomy printed in colour on each transparent page… so one could sort of ‘see through’ the whole body, layer by layer, organ by organ. This book utterly fascinated me — and it was during one of these visits I decided to become a doctor one day.

(Sidenote: My other career ambition was to be a truck driver! It looked so chilled out with an elbow out the window and the wind in your hair…. Seeing new places was already high up on my list as a young child. My mom freaked out at the idea of her little girl driving a truck and having to sleep ‘rough’ next to the road… so I had to quietly drop that idea 😊. The travel bug is being satisfied in other ways, thankfully!)

On every visit to my Granny, that special book was one of my first stops. My mom was a radiographer before I was born, and my gran wanted to be a doctor, too… so I guess medical interest ran in the family.

Oh dear, but the Maths and Science…

Then, in Standard 9 (Grade 11, or the second-to-last year in school, age 17), my Science and Maths marks didn’t quite measure up. I was stressed and disappointed — it meant my plans to study medicine were thwarted. I tried harder and harder… with only more stress and fewer marks to show for it.

It didn’t help that my dad was a math and science teacher! He tried helping me with extra classes, but something in my brain wouldn’t click. I ended up doing ‘Standard Grade’ math and science, instead of ‘Higher Grade’ (This will make sense in South Africa — I’m not sure what the equivalent would be in other countries).

It saved my nerves, though — I got A’s on this level, instead of E’s on the other. And of course, I couldn’t go and study medicine (which required the Higher Grade level). Instead, I turned to my other passion, got a degree in music, and spent 5 few years as a clarinet player in the SA Army Band (interesting job!)

Deep desires don’t die

The desire to help, serve and support people was still there deep down. A few years after I left the music job while still in my second career as a programmer, I found and studied Quantum Touch, Reiki, and EFT. I could finally live my dream of supporting people to get over pain and suffering!

I haven’t talked about my Quantum-Touch and Reiki skills recently. Those were the first energy healing techniques I learned in 2005/2006.

But… more was needed

Working with clients with those modalities made me realise, that sometimes more was required than I could provide. People came to me with physical challenges (like backache, bowed legs, shoulder pain, jaw pain) and expected ‘to be healed’ on the healing bed, without them needing to make any changes to their lives — just continuing down the same path.

I didn’t like that — it felt like the sole responsibility for their healing was on my shoulders.

Often, the pain and sensation during their energy healing session would shift to multiple places in the client’s body. In our training, we learnt that was a clear indication that emotional causes were at play.

I wanted to add a tool for emotional healing — and found EFT in 2006 through Andrew, my now-husband. It was a wonderful addition to my toolbox and made much more sense. Now we could address the emotional root cause of why the body issue started in the first place!

Except… What stress to work on?

It wasn’t always clear to me how to know what to work on for physical issues. I am super confident working with mental and emotional challenges of all sorts… but sorting through the physical issues was a different kettle of fish for me.

My concerns about it were of my own uncertainties and self-doubt. I didn’t want to waste clients’ time and money by chasing after the wrong root cause. Because of that, I didn’t allow myself to work on and gain experience with physical health issues… I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to help them get to the origin and then I’d feel their disappointment or blame.

Louise Hay was sometimes helpful for the odd thing I did work on. But to tell the truth, I felt some of it was a bit airy fairy, not scientific enough for me. I’m a Taurus after all — I do love some ‘airy fairy’ but I also want things to be grounded, firmly rooted on Mother Earth.

Still, so many health issues around me

Then, the pandemic struck. And I was struck by how our health systems were failing us across the board. How much did our established health systems NOT help us! We couldn’t access them during a time we desperately needed safety and reassurance. Things like cancer treatments, non-vital operations and other chronic treatments were postponed to deal with this one (massive) health crisis.

(Note: I’m not casting any blame here on anyone and conspiracy theories are not my thing. I think everyone was doing their best at the time with very little information. And we can do better now that we’ve learned a few things.)

I absolutely knew that this kind of prolonged stress (of the pandemic) would create even more physical and mental health issues … but I wanted to have more details/specifics to go on than ‘stress creates ill-health’. Which kind of stress creates which kind of physical symptom? It can’t be random, I figured, our bodies and nature are too magnificent for that.

Also… all through the 16 years I’ve had my EFT practice, just about every client mentioned a health concern. I hosted a workshop in 2021 on ‘HSP’s and Pain’ because I was learning a lot about how pain is created and perpetuated in the body, especially for more sensitive people. I heard and saw so many people in pain, as I browsed forums, groups on FB, and talked to friends.

A solution for me, at last

That left me wondering again how I could bring relief to my clients for their physical issues. My Empathy talent (from CliftonStrengths) really had a hard time witnessing so much suffering and being able to do so little.

Fortunately, as a start, I attended the Introduction to Meta Consciousness Weekend Course just before the first lockdown in March 2020, in a live class in London. But my Learner talent (from CliftonStrengths) demanded much more in-depth knowledge before being let loose on clients!

3 years later, in April 2023, at last, I could attend the full Meta Consciousness Course. It involved 12 weeks of online classes, plus 7 months to complete case studies. I’ve completed certification.

And now, I finally, finally, feel more equipped to support clients to work with the root cause of their dis-ease — and in a more specific way than I ever thought possible.

The Course

The course was rigorous, with much more than I thought it would entail. And the learning won’t stop for many years to come. The basis of the tool is solid, though it does involve a different paradigm than  Western conventional medicine. It’s based on German New Medicine — created by Dr Ryke Geerd Hamer (German Doctor) in the 70’s and 80’s, with the aid of CT scans. Thus, quite a bit more scientific than Louise Hay 😊.

It’s 50 years later. I wanted to become a doctor at 6 years old, and I’m now 56. I’m NOT a doctor — far from it! Yet I have a tool now to help clients analyse the factors that lie at the root cause of their dis-ease. And then co-create a Soul-ution Plan for healing it.

Now, I feel confident that whatever we explore and clear with EFT, is at the very least in an extremely helpful direction.

I’ll write more about Meta Consciousness and why I’m excited about it, in the next weeks and months.

Do you have a health issue you’ve struggled to get answers for? I know how frustrating and scary it can be to search for answers. Feel free to write me with your concern, it’s confidential.